I dunno how to say.. something's just isn't right..i think first and foremost is my walk with God.. it isn't bad, but its just not GOOD.. not good enough.. not satisfying enough? dunnno how to say..
hmm.. recently there's been a lot going ard.. those who know what i mean will noe what i mean.. haha.. im bothered because i SEE both sides, i SEE both stands.. and on one side, i feel bad opposing, but its doesnt mean i agree with it.. so its pretty 'stuck in the middle' kinda thing.. not that im 'moving' to another stand.. just that, i dunno.. right frm the start i've been taught, and explained to abt God's stand? yup.. but for THE OTHER side.. its the big E problem.. how do u bring the idea across? i dun want to spoil the relationship.. but yet this thing just can't get on if it's not cleared up.. i will feel like a hypocrite..and that, is why im bothered.. and i think i wanna put in what i have in every fellowship.. yup..
something beale sent
"I really don’t see this going any other way. Because we are all going to fail each other’s expectations so assuredly, I see only three possibilities here. Hate or fear each other and completely avoid any relationship. Carry on a superficial relationship where we hide most of our real feelings behind a mask of pretension. Or come out into the open and love each other applying forgiveness liberally to others and ourselves. Forgiveness is the only way to avoid resentment and anger. Fellowship is impossible without it."
pretty meanignful eh? haha. yup..
I hope i hadn't bring across the wrong msg abt implanting one thought's into another.. it wasnt what i meant. sigh. gotta be careful what i said..
hmm.. sian.. ballet is hiong-ing up.. having 4 lessons a week now.. exam's round the corner u see..now sun, mon. tue and thu..na li hui sian... and its gonna continue for a month plus.. i dunno how im gonna cope.. gotta leave it to God..
9:39 PM
blessed.