embracing adulthood

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Vanessa Miriam Chong

I love God.
I want to love His people,
His wonderful creation.

I live a victorious life everyday,
because my saviour has triumphed.

I want to tell the world of my story.
The story of how Jesus and His love has filled me

I will follow Him the rest of my life
And i will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.

yday went out with pw, chek, jhong, slick, qingnian.. went to watch cars and all that.. den chek blanjah us to the 10 buck steamboat.. feel so cheated for 16 years of my life i have never knew such cheap things existd k! Im never going to seoul garden..never again.. well anyway.. good food.. and guess what? fireworks! i mean close up ok! even better than the one at esplanade! This was really great and spectecular.. and we got to watch the air stunts and project superstar.. it was like the best night lah.. until we went home...

LOST MY WALLET!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!! on the bus ok! and they haven't call me until now.. sigh.. when i thought it was such a happening night, without me having to spend a single cent.. but thx to the peeps.. like qingnian, who ran back to the terminal with me, and lent me his ezlink..thx to jhong for waiting and his money, thx to peiwen for encouragement and prayers.. thx to liang han and chek for waiting too..

The feeling of losign ur wallet is terribly sick lah.. but God let me learnt 2 things out of this incident:

1. My friends.. to be thankful for them loh..
2. To really rely on Him.. These few days have been havoc-ing around, busy and all that.. time spent with God reduced too.. i think God is trying to use this incident to draw me back to him.. to let me know that he's in control, to remind me of who i am in christ and to really set straight my realtionship with him.. the whole night i was hoping SBS would call me.. but i realised that.. this is really so called the human dependance.. and what i need is not that, but Godly dependance.. something that only God can give me, secure me and assure me.. And i really thank God that He gave me such a big realisation thru this small small incident.. Also relfected abt my life these few days.. haven't been exhibiting God's golry through me.. going out late at nigh and all that.. doesnt sound like a good testimony.. so im going to settle down and start pia-ing for my Os already.. i have been saying that for so long and not accomplished a single bit of it.. haha.. I gotta buck up man.. starting to feel the jitters!

12:13 PM
blessed.