i ran like 4 km today. thats like 10 rounds round the track.its like the accomplishment of my life. never have i ran so much. ok 4km is like peanuts to some pple but to me its like wow la. sigh. act the training was quite inspiring, with the coach talking and everything. but i really dun wanna get myself into another sooo competitive sport. its like i already have church, school and so many commitments. dun wanna step into another quicksand.sigh. but its really interesting. but i noe i wont be able to commit to the 'xiong' trainings.
i miss ahs. as in genuinely. dunno how the seniors manage to like get over this 'emptiness' . its like so... alone. not that i'm physically alone, i mean having nuaby and angku with me. just that, its no longer the i-know-everyone env anymore. everyone is just so different. u just cant do the things u used to do in sec sch anymore.and studies, its soooo independant studies. its like ur future is in ur own hands, no one is going to be responsible for ur future, ur homework. no one is going to hoard u for like the whole week for ONE piece of assignment. u miss the lecture, u dun do ur hw, thats it. u miss out. no one is going to remind u that u are taking ur a levels in like 2 years' time.
sigh. so tired.
12:07 AM
blessed.