'..pain is ye friend, pain is fine, pain keeps ye stayin alive..'
excruciating pain. pain beyond literal description. pain, physically, and mentally. pain on the inside, pain on the outside. pain, the only indication that you're alive.
september 11, 2001. the fall of world trade centre. as i was watching the movie. i witnessed not just the fall of the building, the fall of thousands of lives. the catastrophic effect on the nation, and the helplessness of mankind. i was just suddenly struck. this
THING that happened. this very
THING. this big event, big disaster... is like
wow. not wow as in wow cool. but wow, what an effect it had. never have i seen a destruction so great. the repercussions of the event were obvious. social, economic, political, even individual. somehow at that point of time. i really thought it was just a movie. too horrible to be true? maybe. but thats reality. and it just goes to show that anything can happen beyond our imagination. i rmb a scene when the police officers were on the way to the WTC and the big guy said to his subordinate:
"So whats the plan?"
"Are you kidding? (den he goes on to mention a list of names of some instruments used in disasters). We've got everything we've prepared for, but not for this, not for something of this size. We're not prepared for this,
there is no plan"
sso the movie goes one as police officers, paramedics, civil workers rush into the WTC, only to land themselves in a pit of doom. the buildings crashed, and the movie gos on to focus on 2 police officer, John and Mr Emmanuel(i forgot his first name k). what touched me most was that, during the second wave of crashings, john in his pain, prayed the Lord's prayer. and he praised God even though he knew something bad had happened to his knees.
Do we really have to wait for such a moment before we start appreciating the LORD, praying to Him, and praising HIm, from the heart? ask ourselves how many times have we prayed the Lord's prayer earnestly? meaning each and every word we said? or did we say it out of fulfillment of procedures? Must God put us in such a situation to test our faith? Shouldnt our faith be ever strong, ever present and ever trusting in our God, no matter what happens?
Does it ever matter what we feel? as in towards perhaps ministry work? wasnt it all about God in the first place? why are we putting so much focus on ourselves on what we can do or what we cant do? rather we should be thinking of what we
should do. so what if u dun feel like it? so what if u dun feel good about it? was it ever about ourselves?
i dun think so. our lives, are a mere worship to God, nothing more, nothing less. nothing close to worshipping ourselves.
1:17 AM
blessed.
