Hi all. Im back from renai camp.
Just some words from God.
"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD, trust in Him and he will do this:"
I was so glad i went for the dedication night before the camp. we were asked to write down what we want God to do for us in this camp. i was thinking and thinking and thinking and i really didn't know what to write. i guess i had been so spiritually stagnant that i dont even have a 'vision' for this camp. Then i was thinking about my group. there were lots of sec 1s. ok not a lot. but young ones la. then something struck my mind,
spiritual pride.
Its so me to ask around hey who's my group members and how are they like. because im always expecting them to be enthu, high and ONs. but this time God sent me a bunch of people that i had totally no idea about. I had nothing to expect and found myself speculating less. but i was afraid. then i wrote down 2 things: spiritual pride, and a prayer for the sec 1s. cos at that point of time i felt that the sec1s weren't serious enough about their faith
so on the day that i received my confirmed group listings, i realised that Candy was slotted into my group. im telling you i was worrying like siao already and this didnt make it any better. in fact i think it was worst. cos Candy has been in Tree cell after student camp 2006. however she hasnt been attending cell one or two weeks after student camp. i ddint know how to 'lead' her in the group and tlak to her and stuff like tha cos it just seems so weird! but i told myself: remember Vanessa, remember to bring out any pride, any expectations. try. True enough, my predicted fears came true. On the very day that she came, (which was the second day), we were having BS then, and she gave me the don;t-talk-to-me kind of look. im telling u i was like freaking out la.but at the end of the camp, during the boot camp, she actually declared her love for God which i was so touched! and during the closing i could see her joy when she was playing with her peers. i felt God has done so much in her and i just couldn't deny it.
then i was thinking throughout the whole camp: since this camp is about putting God first, then why the verse Joshua 24:15 which says:
"But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD."
At first it just didnt seem very relevant to me but then at the end of the camp i finally understood why. look at it this way:
But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods of other people, or the world, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.
i guess it says it all. :)
3:32 PM
blessed.
