What runs through your mind when you're alone, on the way back home?
It was an unusually quiet saturday for me. After we broke off from cell, i was stunned to see only my bud and some kids waiting for us to go for dinner. well we managed to make up a team of abt 7-8 in the end but still, too little people means no chill out program. so ended up going home at 7 plus.it was so early that the sky has barely turned dark. i could see the clouds still and this was so unusual! so as i was walking back home i thought of a lot of things. thought of my conversation with bing xia and peewee over dinner, thought of whats gonna happen this few weeks...... it feels kinda good like this... sometimes. just walking and slowing down your pace of life, just thinking about life and maybe dreaming a lil' of whats gonna happen few years down the road.
its so hard to dream nowadays. everytime you allow your thoughts to go a little further and poof! you're hit by reality. time, money, chance and many other considerations just pulls your 'dreams' back to where they should be. 'Dare to dream', dare to get out of whats stopping your thoughts from going far.
its scary to know that im turning 18 soon and im still clueless of where to go what to do. okay, maybe im just too kan cheong. but i guess i really need soem form of goal and motivation and purpose to keep me going. i hate the idea of not knowing what you're working. exactly the reason why i dread school. im not even condsidering to be a doctor or like to get into a science course or whatever, why am i even studying bio and chem? so for people out there who are considering JC or poly. i would say go poly if you know where you wanna head!!!!
9:49 PM
blessed.