been emo this week. it suddenly hit me that everyone is starting to go their separate ways and this reality is taking its form unknowingly. school has started for nuaby for a week. sin hwee will be off in an uncertain time. shubs maybe going uni, or may not. all the rest of the guys went to NS. hmm.. its not like last time when we ALL were studying for the As together. its sad, in a way. though life before the 'A's were sickening, it certainly felt more warm. its not like now, where u have issues with cold hard money, cold hard jobs, cold hard NS, cold hard decisions, cold hard interviews, cold hard applications. everything is just so cold all of a sudden. its as though youth is being sapped away, especially the vibrance and liveliness. do i sound like a jaded old woman? hahaha.
i came up with this rubik's cube life principle. im now like the one-face-completed rubik's cube. and im moving on to the second. but in order to make the second i must fix it in such a way that the first side remains correct. which is hard cos whatever decisions u make is based on the values that have been inculcated in you for the past years. and u have to make correct decisions in order to not eradicate any of them from your life.
feels like im suffering from an identity crisis eh? haha. maybe im just tired. speaking of which, God has been very good to me this week. though i really dun feel like teaching my kids, i persevered on and found satisfaction in it, all with the help of Jesus. and He brought shubs back too! double happiness!
anyway i really wanna comment about irresponsible teachers. i really cannot take it. i mean, no matter how much i dun feel like teaching the kids some days, i would never give up because i have the responsibility to educate and to teach these kids. this responsibility does not stem from my salary mind you, its more of like a job ethics kinda thing. some teachers can jsut give up on their class and have no qualms about it, and they can jsut totally dun care about the class. i mean like hello? the kids are innocent! the responsibility of an educator is huge. dont take it up unless u are confident that u are able to commit, both time wise and students wise. its like buying soemthing on impulse, or buying a pet and abandoning it after a while. ( the worst thing is this person actually snatched the pet from its original owner) irresponsible acts just irks me. it is sad to say that singapore is full of people like this. and they are supposed to be more mature than us......... i always say knowledge is not equal to wisdom.
eat wholemeal bread!
12:21 AM
blessed.
