my decision about going which uni doesnt seem to have made me feel any better about my future- the creep is starting to come back again. sigh.
you know they say the more u get in touch with something, the more you know it. it doesnt seem to be the case for me. after coming back from foc, the road ahead seems even darker than before. i was very impressed i must say, by the capabilities of the seniors. i dun mean in terms of organising a camp of course (haha) but really by their reason to be in WKWSCI. i look at myself and question what do i have to offer here that can at least be on par, and i find no answer. with that, i ask myself again what i might be doing here, and the horrific thing is that i find no answer.
when i gave up DA GOLD, i told myself its ok, i'll fight, with God by my side. but im worried now that i dun even know what im fighting WITH. its just so scary. i know its what i like to do. but being at good at it? hmmm. i jsut need to get over this phase soon enough before it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. bleah.
i dun mean to worry... its not like im going to do anything extreme like quitting sch or what anyway. its just, a very creepy feeling. like those u get when u watch horror movies and u know the ghost is going to jump out anytime, but u dunno when.
played guitar hero yesterday! WHOO! so fun! its officially my favourite game now. wonder whens the next time i can play! seems like a lot of people are crazy over it as well!
11:44 PM
blessed.