broccoli with cheese. thats what im craving for right now, even after a sumptuous fish soup with rice and fried egg. yums.
late night dinner. thats because i was at MJ.
enjoyed myself, of course. but after the session there was a debrief and i felt suddenyl robbed of my time. i mean of cos i expected it when i joined it, but aiya. always like to live in delusion, thinking that it wont be that bad etc etc.
im very afraid. this time its for real. after all the prep talks, im facing IT now. i dun wanna live a life that i CONTROL, i want a life that God delights, i wanna be committed to what God wants me to, and not what I want, i want God to rule my life, not I rule my life.
i dun wanna be doing something that i like only, but i wanna be doing something i like because i know thats what God has blessed me to do and that it will glorify him. the way i see it, i dunno how everything im doing right now can glorify God. or maybe i need to wait, for things to unfold and God will reveal to me, like he usually does. I dunno. I really can only wait upon Him and yeah, just wait upon him.
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I’m flipping through my calendar, stressing with commitments, and you just want to hang out – with me. Help me turn my prayers into conversations with you that keep flowing throughout the day, an on-going communication where I never say “Amen.”'
'With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may count you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may fulfill every good purpose of yours and every act prompted by your faith.
We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.'
-2 Thessalonians 1:11-12
my strength, my life, God take it.
side note: MJ was awesome!!! AWESOMETOTALINESS!
11:00 PM
blessed.